A Conversation About " Grow Up"

As usual, I feel like to grow up because it's time for me and I have to...
But, at the same time I m scare and I dont want to GROW UP...

So far, my parent never tell me how's the outside world is..
Maybe they just dont want to scare me, and make me upset..
My dad told my sister before who working in his office,
"Try to solve and face the problem, I will teach u/ help u at the right time. Because I want you to learn from it."
That's why, I never have any pressure from my parent since I m still a student..

However, my boyfriend is totally different...


He wants me to get myself ready now.. because he scare I can handle it at that time.
For him, I m just a "siok jiak" which mean a girl who cant do anything.
Because I have been well protected by my lovely family members.
No matter what happened, I just have to call them and they will teach me how and what should I do in order to solve the problem.. They cheer me up always. Thats why, I love them a lot.

But, my boyfriend told me something oneday, which I think its true..
" Your parent is getting old, your sisters will have their own family one day, if u dont want to be their burden and make them worry, you have to try to solve the problem by yourself. Learn from it and grow up. No matter what's the result comes out, its still the same - Your family members still by yourside as your back up, and me too. We just want you to learn and face it, because we dont know what might happen in the future and remember Experience is the best teacher in the world. "




Following are the conversation about "grow up".... which I should remind me always I think...
and I want to share it with the people who like me-who have no idea hows the outside world is-


[27/12/10 4:10:53 PM] Hendra: tell me wat do u wan lor
[27/12/10 4:10:58 PM] siaoee: nothing~ [27/12/10 4:11:03 PM] siaoee: i dont want anything~~
[27/12/10 4:11:06 PM] Hendra: u dun wan become mature? [27/12/10 4:11:16 PM] Hendra: if u dun wan u just study lor
[27/12/10 4:11:23 PM] siaoee: dont force me to grow up, can u??
[27/12/10 4:11:29 PM] Hendra: im human i have problem as well
[27/12/10 4:11:40 PM] siaoee: i know~~
[27/12/10 4:11:43 PM] Hendra: then wat do u wan to do? [27/12/10 4:11:50 PM] Hendra: just like a kid
[27/12/10 4:11:54 PM] siaoee: i tried my best edi..
[27/12/10 4:11:56 PM] Hendra: keep crying?
[27/12/10 4:12:00 PM] siaoee: ok... [27/12/10 4:12:14 PM] siaoee: i want stop chatting now~~
[27/12/10 4:12:14 PM] Hendra: u can tell ur dad lor [27/12/10 4:12:17 PM] Hendra: not me
[27/12/10 4:12:22 PM] siaoee: ok~~ [27/12/10 4:12:24 PM] siaoee: thanks~
[27/12/10 4:12:29 PM] Hendra: i never force u
[27/12/10 4:12:38 PM] Hendra: but u said u r going to work
[27/12/10 4:12:50 PM] Hendra: how could the environment accept it
[27/12/10 4:13:39 PM] Hendra: always run from a problem
[27/12/10 4:13:46 PM] Hendra: up to u lar
[27/12/10 4:14:01 PM] Hendra: just talk wif me if u r happy
[27/12/10 4:14:11 PM] Hendra: if u r not happy u will leave me like this
[27/12/10 4:14:17 PM] Hendra: how could we marry/
[27/12/10 4:14:34 PM] Hendra: u have to handle urself lor
[27/12/10 4:14:48 PM] Hendra: cannot be scare
[27/12/10 4:15:00 PM] Hendra: i told u thousand s time edi
[27/12/10 4:15:09 PM] Hendra: hopefully u can remember
[27/12/10 4:15:17 PM] Hendra: u have 1 month to go
[27/12/10 4:15:24 PM] Hendra: after that u will work edi
[27/12/10 4:15:34 PM] Hendra: everything will be different
[27/12/10 4:16:10 PM] Hendra: u will know heaps of people which u never meat that kind of character before
[27/12/10 4:16:33 PM] Hendra: u can see now ppl surrounding you all of them are kid
[27/12/10 4:16:58 PM] Hendra: but later on when u work ppl around u are ppl whos fight for their life
[27/12/10 4:17:01 PM] Hendra: like me
[27/12/10 4:17:07 PM] Hendra: not different
[27/12/10 4:17:35 PM] Hendra: we r trying to survive and sacrifice our life for money and make a better living
[27/12/10 4:17:46 PM] Hendra: watever happens we have to accept it
[27/12/10 4:18:02 PM] Hendra: w can cry,share,even kill ouself
[27/12/10 4:18:25 PM] Hendra: but it wont solve any problem that happening to our life
[27/12/10 4:18:36 PM] Hendra: can u understand
[27/12/10 4:19:07 PM] Hendra: mayb if u can read my mind
[27/12/10 4:19:11 PM] Hendra: u will be crazy
[27/12/10 4:19:30 PM] Hendra: everyday wat i think is only you and money
[27/12/10 4:19:32 PM] Hendra: no more
[27/12/10 4:19:41 PM] Hendra: how could i marry u
[27/12/10 4:19:45 PM] Hendra: of coz i need money
[27/12/10 4:19:57 PM] Hendra: so money related to you
[27/12/10 4:20:18 PM] Hendra: i cant call my dad asking for money like you anymore
[27/12/10 4:20:39 PM] Hendra: not like the people around u
[27/12/10 4:20:47 PM] Hendra: their parents still support them
[27/12/10 4:21:03 PM] Hendra: even wanna buy a mobile phone wondering money from parents
[27/12/10 4:21:24 PM] Hendra: even buy a gift for their BF/GF still using their parents money
[27/12/10 4:21:42 PM] Hendra: even a food still eating their parents sweat
[27/12/10 4:22:01 PM] Hendra: so its a bit hard to accept
[27/12/10 4:22:16 PM] Hendra: the transitions is very hard
[27/12/10 4:22:30 PM] Hendra: u have to accept anything that in front of you
[27/12/10 4:22:55 PM] Hendra: gravel or smooth even a river u need to keep walking and run and cross it
[27/12/10 4:23:21 PM] Hendra: hows the result come out u have to thanks god and urself
[27/12/10 4:23:30 PM] Hendra: cant blame urself
[27/12/10 4:23:44 PM] Hendra: otherwise u will be stressfull
[27/12/10 4:23:47 PM] Hendra: like this
[27/12/10 4:23:57 PM] Hendra: fully stressfull happening to you
[27/12/10 4:24:25 PM] Hendra: so drive urself to a good way
[27/12/10 4:24:40 PM] Hendra: solve everything with good think
[27/12/10 4:24:53 PM] Hendra: dun follow kid
[27/12/10 4:25:08 PM] Hendra: a kid doesnt carre about future
[27/12/10 4:25:13 PM] Hendra: they dunno anything
[27/12/10 4:25:34 PM] Hendra: if you ask them to do anything they will say they dunno
[27/12/10 4:26:10 PM] Hendra: they will think the easiest way but it will sacrifice people around them
[27/12/10 4:26:16 PM] Hendra: but they dun realize
[27/12/10 4:26:46 PM] Hendra: DID U STILL REMEMBER WHEN U WERE YOUNG
[27/12/10 4:26:57 PM] Hendra: U R CRYING AND ASKING SUMTHING FROM UR PARENTS
[27/12/10 4:27:12 PM] Hendra: INDIRECTLY U MADE PEOPLE SACRIFICE FOR YOU
[27/12/10 4:27:27 PM] Hendra: BUT IN THIS CASE UR PARENTS WILL SACRIFICE FOR YOU
[27/12/10 4:27:56 PM] Hendra: BUT IN UR CASE DO YOU THINK PEOPLE AROUND U WILL SACRIFICE FOR YOU?
[27/12/10 4:28:14 PM] Hendra: Remember this thing u will be fine baby
[27/12/10 4:28:15 PM] Hendra: ok
[27/12/10 4:28:35 PM] Hendra: u have a look people around u


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p.s: I m glad to have him, my family and YOU..