Happy Mother's Day

我是幸福的小孩。
因为我有一位超棒，超爱我的老妈

在母亲节的这一天，
我们并没有什么特别的庆祝，但我相信 我妈妈今天是 开心的
其实 她要的 真的 很 简单， 但 我们却无法 去满足她
现在的我， 我 会 尽我的能力，忍耐力，体力 去满足她

和她说好了，
星期一到星期五 我就是上班，帮他作些轻松的家务
星期六，陪她逛街，和她去找好吃的餐厅
星期日，做家务，打扫庭院
她听到时，她笑了。
我的老妈－－就是那么容易的就被满足了

看着我的老妈，老爸 渐渐的老了， 我姐要结婚了
我们都长大了 我们都有自己的理想。责任 所以 我们 相处的时间 并不多
让
现在的我，更珍惜和家人相聚的时刻

现在的我 常告诉别人
我 现在 最好的 朋友 就是 我最爱的 老妈 （我几乎时她的跟屁虫了）
因，我知道 她比任何人都需要 我 的陪伴
因， 我的姐妹们 都不在她的身边 陪伴她



母亲节 快乐
愿，我的老妈。。



找到自己的生活目标。好好的享受生活。
相信她的五位宝贝女儿和老公都很爱很爱她。

另一个开始

从澳洲回来快要3个月了。
这3个月里，发生了好多好多的事情

从无忧无虑大学——》现实的社会，
从大学生——》短期出家人——》上班人士
从澳洲——》马来西亚——》泰国——》印度——》印尼——》马来西亚

我觉得 我改变了
变得 更现实了
变得 更勇敢了
变得 更珍惜和家人在一起的时间了
变得 更感恩，珍惜我拥有的一切了
变得 更明白 我现在要的是什么了



我明白了，
在这社会里， 没有人会为你而无限的付出。。
你想要的，都必须靠你自己去争取。。

I wanna go home~

Can I say NO to EXAM???
NO!!!NO!!!!NO!!!!!!!!!

My Final exam on 3rd Feb 2011..which means.....
I m going to have Exam while others ppl are Gong Xi Gong Xi and celebrating CNY. Wth
and I have to study when all my sisters are getting Ang Pao from my uncles n auties.
I wanna go back so much!!!

Because.......

1.I love CNY..



2.This might be the last year my eldest sister going to celebrate CNY with us at Ah Gong's house since she is planning to get marry this year on 11.11.11.



3. I can have Dinner at our lovely "old" restaurant--


4. Have fun with my cousins.. we meet once a year~~



5. Meet my Old old friends ( My primary friends)


6. The final reason is.... I miss HIM so much~~ and he is coming to pick me up at airport~






Will my lecturer let me have exam earlier if he see my blog??
Stop dreaming~~

20 days to go~~~~and I ll see U in Malaysia again~
Hopefully, I can pass my exam and graduate!! Pray Hard!!

When I was 22nd (2010)....

Well... Its just to summaries what i did for last year~~~

1. The BEST choice I ever made~~ Broke up v my Ex-boyfriend..

Well, after ended up tat relationship,
I just knew how stupid m I..
That's not point for me to continue that relationship at all.
which bring me tear more than happiness..

2. Have a new relationship

I m happy v this relationship, so far..
Well, I doubted how much I love him, he loves me.how long we will be together.
But, now its getting clear..who i wanna to be with..

3. Finally I get most of the stamps for my "Canberra Passport"

What is "Canberra Passport"??
A passport to collect stamp from tourist attraction when you traveling around Canberra.

4. I went to Cairns!! Scuba-diving for the 1st time in my life.

Went to Cairns v my family and bf..
Went snorkeling and scuba diving.. its so so so PRETTY!!!

5. I m a good CHEF

Trust me, I can cook n bake!! I learn it from my personal chef-Hendra-
I wrote down the recipe when he is cooking..
So, its secret recipe!!

6. Charity work. Temple

After 4 years in Canberra, finally I found a lovely and peace temple that i like.
I went there quite often. Friendly monks. and friends there.
Do some charity works there.

7. Ski

Went to Ski at Perisher Blue..
A fun experience..

8. The worst moment in my life

It's a shame in my life, I think..
that
I cant graduate on time. =(

Erm... I think that's all for my 2010..
Went up and down...But, at least I m growing up..

Hopefully, 2011 is a good year for me since my life is changing in this year..
From a student to an employee..$$ is my goal.

A Conversation About " Grow Up"

As usual, I feel like to grow up because it's time for me and I have to...
But, at the same time I m scare and I dont want to GROW UP...

So far, my parent never tell me how's the outside world is..
Maybe they just dont want to scare me, and make me upset..
My dad told my sister before who working in his office,
"Try to solve and face the problem, I will teach u/ help u at the right time. Because I want you to learn from it."
That's why, I never have any pressure from my parent since I m still a student..

However, my boyfriend is totally different...


He wants me to get myself ready now.. because he scare I can handle it at that time.
For him, I m just a "siok jiak" which mean a girl who cant do anything.
Because I have been well protected by my lovely family members.
No matter what happened, I just have to call them and they will teach me how and what should I do in order to solve the problem.. They cheer me up always. Thats why, I love them a lot.

But, my boyfriend told me something oneday, which I think its true..
" Your parent is getting old, your sisters will have their own family one day, if u dont want to be their burden and make them worry, you have to try to solve the problem by yourself. Learn from it and grow up. No matter what's the result comes out, its still the same - Your family members still by yourside as your back up, and me too. We just want you to learn and face it, because we dont know what might happen in the future and remember Experience is the best teacher in the world. "




Following are the conversation about "grow up".... which I should remind me always I think...
and I want to share it with the people who like me-who have no idea hows the outside world is-


[27/12/10 4:10:53 PM] Hendra: tell me wat do u wan lor
[27/12/10 4:10:58 PM] siaoee: nothing~ [27/12/10 4:11:03 PM] siaoee: i dont want anything~~
[27/12/10 4:11:06 PM] Hendra: u dun wan become mature? [27/12/10 4:11:16 PM] Hendra: if u dun wan u just study lor
[27/12/10 4:11:23 PM] siaoee: dont force me to grow up, can u??
[27/12/10 4:11:29 PM] Hendra: im human i have problem as well
[27/12/10 4:11:40 PM] siaoee: i know~~
[27/12/10 4:11:43 PM] Hendra: then wat do u wan to do? [27/12/10 4:11:50 PM] Hendra: just like a kid
[27/12/10 4:11:54 PM] siaoee: i tried my best edi..
[27/12/10 4:11:56 PM] Hendra: keep crying?
[27/12/10 4:12:00 PM] siaoee: ok... [27/12/10 4:12:14 PM] siaoee: i want stop chatting now~~
[27/12/10 4:12:14 PM] Hendra: u can tell ur dad lor [27/12/10 4:12:17 PM] Hendra: not me
[27/12/10 4:12:22 PM] siaoee: ok~~ [27/12/10 4:12:24 PM] siaoee: thanks~
[27/12/10 4:12:29 PM] Hendra: i never force u
[27/12/10 4:12:38 PM] Hendra: but u said u r going to work
[27/12/10 4:12:50 PM] Hendra: how could the environment accept it
[27/12/10 4:13:39 PM] Hendra: always run from a problem
[27/12/10 4:13:46 PM] Hendra: up to u lar
[27/12/10 4:14:01 PM] Hendra: just talk wif me if u r happy
[27/12/10 4:14:11 PM] Hendra: if u r not happy u will leave me like this
[27/12/10 4:14:17 PM] Hendra: how could we marry/
[27/12/10 4:14:34 PM] Hendra: u have to handle urself lor
[27/12/10 4:14:48 PM] Hendra: cannot be scare
[27/12/10 4:15:00 PM] Hendra: i told u thousand s time edi
[27/12/10 4:15:09 PM] Hendra: hopefully u can remember
[27/12/10 4:15:17 PM] Hendra: u have 1 month to go
[27/12/10 4:15:24 PM] Hendra: after that u will work edi
[27/12/10 4:15:34 PM] Hendra: everything will be different
[27/12/10 4:16:10 PM] Hendra: u will know heaps of people which u never meat that kind of character before
[27/12/10 4:16:33 PM] Hendra: u can see now ppl surrounding you all of them are kid
[27/12/10 4:16:58 PM] Hendra: but later on when u work ppl around u are ppl whos fight for their life
[27/12/10 4:17:01 PM] Hendra: like me
[27/12/10 4:17:07 PM] Hendra: not different
[27/12/10 4:17:35 PM] Hendra: we r trying to survive and sacrifice our life for money and make a better living
[27/12/10 4:17:46 PM] Hendra: watever happens we have to accept it
[27/12/10 4:18:02 PM] Hendra: w can cry,share,even kill ouself
[27/12/10 4:18:25 PM] Hendra: but it wont solve any problem that happening to our life
[27/12/10 4:18:36 PM] Hendra: can u understand
[27/12/10 4:19:07 PM] Hendra: mayb if u can read my mind
[27/12/10 4:19:11 PM] Hendra: u will be crazy
[27/12/10 4:19:30 PM] Hendra: everyday wat i think is only you and money
[27/12/10 4:19:32 PM] Hendra: no more
[27/12/10 4:19:41 PM] Hendra: how could i marry u
[27/12/10 4:19:45 PM] Hendra: of coz i need money
[27/12/10 4:19:57 PM] Hendra: so money related to you
[27/12/10 4:20:18 PM] Hendra: i cant call my dad asking for money like you anymore
[27/12/10 4:20:39 PM] Hendra: not like the people around u
[27/12/10 4:20:47 PM] Hendra: their parents still support them
[27/12/10 4:21:03 PM] Hendra: even wanna buy a mobile phone wondering money from parents
[27/12/10 4:21:24 PM] Hendra: even buy a gift for their BF/GF still using their parents money
[27/12/10 4:21:42 PM] Hendra: even a food still eating their parents sweat
[27/12/10 4:22:01 PM] Hendra: so its a bit hard to accept
[27/12/10 4:22:16 PM] Hendra: the transitions is very hard
[27/12/10 4:22:30 PM] Hendra: u have to accept anything that in front of you
[27/12/10 4:22:55 PM] Hendra: gravel or smooth even a river u need to keep walking and run and cross it
[27/12/10 4:23:21 PM] Hendra: hows the result come out u have to thanks god and urself
[27/12/10 4:23:30 PM] Hendra: cant blame urself
[27/12/10 4:23:44 PM] Hendra: otherwise u will be stressfull
[27/12/10 4:23:47 PM] Hendra: like this
[27/12/10 4:23:57 PM] Hendra: fully stressfull happening to you
[27/12/10 4:24:25 PM] Hendra: so drive urself to a good way
[27/12/10 4:24:40 PM] Hendra: solve everything with good think
[27/12/10 4:24:53 PM] Hendra: dun follow kid
[27/12/10 4:25:08 PM] Hendra: a kid doesnt carre about future
[27/12/10 4:25:13 PM] Hendra: they dunno anything
[27/12/10 4:25:34 PM] Hendra: if you ask them to do anything they will say they dunno
[27/12/10 4:26:10 PM] Hendra: they will think the easiest way but it will sacrifice people around them
[27/12/10 4:26:16 PM] Hendra: but they dun realize
[27/12/10 4:26:46 PM] Hendra: DID U STILL REMEMBER WHEN U WERE YOUNG
[27/12/10 4:26:57 PM] Hendra: U R CRYING AND ASKING SUMTHING FROM UR PARENTS
[27/12/10 4:27:12 PM] Hendra: INDIRECTLY U MADE PEOPLE SACRIFICE FOR YOU
[27/12/10 4:27:27 PM] Hendra: BUT IN THIS CASE UR PARENTS WILL SACRIFICE FOR YOU
[27/12/10 4:27:56 PM] Hendra: BUT IN UR CASE DO YOU THINK PEOPLE AROUND U WILL SACRIFICE FOR YOU?
[27/12/10 4:28:14 PM] Hendra: Remember this thing u will be fine baby
[27/12/10 4:28:15 PM] Hendra: ok
[27/12/10 4:28:35 PM] Hendra: u have a look people around u


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p.s: I m glad to have him, my family and YOU..

Miss

There is a pair of couple having fight..
Listening to their conversation...


It makes me miss you alot. (super a lot)..
The moment we spent together..
It would be lovely if you are right beside me right now..


*Just realized that...
We only have few couple's pictures...
because of the following stupid reason,
"I am a photographer, so, I'm not suppose to appear in the pictures", HH

The 4th night
I Stay here without you.

Looooooking For

曾经以为 一加一 就是 等于 二
可是，渐渐的 长大了 开始 知道 不管 什么 －人，事，物－
都不再是那么的 简单 了

不是 你 随心所欲 的 就能决定
不是 你 一时兴起 的 就能改变
不是 你 一意孤行 的 就能成功

曾经 以为 大学毕业了 是 一种 解脱
可是 原来 这才是 另一段 路程 的 开始
曾经 以为 为父母分担 是 我的 目标
可是 指南针 也有 在 徘回的 那过程 （目标不明确了）
曾经 以为 开始一段 家人 认定的爱情 可以 得到 祝福
可是 事事。时时 的 改变 证明了 我 跟不上 他人的 变化

我需要的 是 一个 奋斗的目标
可是 可悲的 是 我 还在 寻寻觅觅 的路程 中